Ok, it's CD10. I'm feeling pretty blah about everything, but I haven't completely lost my head. Monitoring this morning....lining looks good, steady follicle growth. I'm keeping everything crossed that we can do the IUI on Monday. Tuesday and Wednesday are meetings/training for a big company project kick-off and I have no idea how I'd get out of them. I'll do what I need to do, but it won't be pretty. It doesn't help that the only other person from my department on the team is my nemesis (at least in my mind, I don't even know if she realizes it.) zen, zen, zen. Work isn't a happy place lately.
I'm already thinking ahead to the inevitable negative (or positive that will bring on another mc) and what to do next. I've been struggling a lot with feelings that I've been wasting my life (mid life crisis at 33??). I don't mean dropping everything to join the peace corps or backpack through the rain forest -- I'm not going to lie, I enjoy things like comfortable beds and indoor plumbing. But I have a wonderful husband, we live in a great city, we work hard and make a nice living but we aren't making the most of it. So many things that I haven't done - or that I talk about doing, but never follow through. I'm the girl who decides to learn to knit, takes a class, buys tons of supplies, completes one hat, and then drops the hobby. It's time to live a little - dim sum in Chinatown, buy a pass for the upcoming film festival and spend three days watching indie movies, 40 day yoga challenge, get a massage, learn to play drums.....
meh. If you've stuck with my rambling this far - I appreciate it. I'll try to step up the sunshine in my next post!
I know what you mean. I find IF takes up most of my life right now. I was talking with my husband about this the other day and was like 'can you imagine our life WITHOUT trying for a baby??' It's pretty much become a part of who we are, and we've revolved our lives around it...but hopefully this is just temporary for both of us.
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I am so that lady that bought a knitting book, watched a thousand youtube videos on it, bought all the supplies, made a scarf, and then never touched it again. You've inspired me to pick that hobby back up!
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